August 29, 2009

Setting Sail

I’ll be busy with work for a while, so this is most likely going to be my last post for quite some time. I wanted it to be something that was somewhat philosophical to a certain degree, and as such it will touch upon something that has been weighing on my mind off and on for the last few years.

I’ve come to a point in life where I’m not sure what “right” and “wrong” are and I’m not sure what “good” and “bad” are. More specifically, I’m not sure if what I do—or what I’ve done—has been “right” or “wrong” or “good” or “bad,” no matter what it has been.

Over the last few years I’ve noticed that the more I’ve accomplished, or the more that I’ve attempted to accomplish things that I thought were good and positive, the more that I’ve had people distance themselves from me and in a few cases I’ve received outright criticism for it as well hatred for having done it.

This is forcing me to re-evaluate many of the views that I’ve held for most of my life. This process of re-evaluation is taking me into uncharted waters but at the same time it feels as if it’s a course that I have no choice but to take.

Keeping with the metaphor of water, I’m not sure if it’ll be a course that will eventually take me to a new land or if I’ll simply continue sailing towards a horizon that never has a landmass pop up—ever.

Perhaps sailing for a while is the course itself. We’ll see.

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